My conscience is clear. I screw no one up.

Yesss, finally saw pam after so long!
joy joy joy.
and she told me so many things of what happened recently,
from her stories, to what to do to mine, and how true and fake some ppl are.
wow, its such an eye opener.

real ones, they make you see how geniune one is, and then you'll come to know.
oh, that one. yes over there. yes thats a fake.
its like how do ppl discover that a diamondis fake? its only cause they've seen real ones.

mel, like what i said when how would a person know how true happiness feels
its only when they've been sad once, that they will know how does being happy feels like
like how a rollar coaster ride will never get to its peak, when its never gone way down once.
and. sad to say. thats also life.

oh, i'll add a juicy part.
today i saw *******.
hes my neighbour.
havent seen him since stongage.
so we havent caught up for a long time.
but when he started by saying, " oh man hey yo. eh! anyway i saw... etc"
and he told me what he saw..
about.
them.
im like ! times 2, but pain times much more.

told you, the truth will eventually come running to one person, after time.
lies will only surface, cause they're fake. & the truth will somehow show.

sometimes i wish, that somehow can just vanish me, right into thin air.
so i wont be able to feel, to see, to hear, to know.
then it'll be so much easier for everyone too.
i know i might just make some people out there happier.
but then again, (you make think its cliche but freak off)
you think of so many wonderful things that has happened to you.
how miricles work, and how you were even given a chance to be with someone you once crushed so bad.
how amazing things work.
friends, how they stand by you, holding your hand even when you run, or walk. or trip.
and God, how he carried you right from the start.

so, hence, sylvia chee, please be happier.

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